J-O-B (Journey of the broke/A creative’s journey)

2/9/2019 9:35 PM Saturday     I'd like to believe that we get certain talents and abilities from our parents and their parents and so on. Some, many, are born with gifts yet untapped. Our genes remain unlocked for their own unique potential to manifest. Instilled throughout the centuries of human evolution. I would, potentially, …

Speaking of 30

1/19/2019 11:16 AM     Just about completely fed up with the thoughts ruminating in my head. I work out so hard, sometimes for two hours, and get so sore I can't even move to the kitchen without groaning. Still, though, the thoughts come burning up as quickly as they disappeared. I continued with my …

Re-Imaging 2019 & Beyond

12/15/2018 Saturday 8:30 AM     Being sick with a head cold has its creative merits. My thoughts feel lucid and every motion has a pinch of existential allure. In fact, this whole year has been one giant conundrum of bullshit and rife with existential questions on the state of my being as I rapidly …

Modern Times (The City)

11/10/18 Saturday 11:30 AM     Took a Vyvanse yesterday, a class of amphetamine similar to Adderall but better, around the middle of the day and felt like I was rolling balls all the way past midnight. I drove around banging house music before deciding I would once again try out my singing voice, which …

The Bullshit Toolkit

8/22/2018 Wednesday 10:00 PM     Spraining my knee last week when I took a hard spill on the concrete in uptown has got me really fucked up. At the time, it was dead ass five o'clock rush hour traffic and the local streets around downtown were a slow-moving parking lot. Attempting to be clever …

Nest Egg, Laying Bricks

8/4/2018 Saturday 10:26 AM     You can't force inspiration as well as love, respect, or admiration. We're not even quite sure where our dreams and aspirations come from. We simply have them. Our sub-species of humans has only been around the past 150,000 years but which have consequently also had the most development in …

What do you need?

    In writing this blog I am attempting to self-author my life and discover where I came from so I know what I'm about and where exactly I stand. Took me over a year and thousands of words to get to this point. Because I really don't know how I came to be sometimes. …

My Own Hell, Limbo & Lust

    Maybe my dopamine levels flattened out. I quit smoking cold turkey on Wednesday and have felt the full blunt force of the depression associated with nicotine withdrawals. It doesn't help matters that I got played by the older woman I met the weekend before. She goes completely cold on me a week later …

Character

Will I live tomorrow? Well I just can't say Will I live tomorrow? Well I just can't say But I know for sure I don't live today No sun comin' through my windows Feel like I'm livin' at the bottom of a grave No sun comin' through my windows Feel like I'm livin' at the …

Take The Trip, Man

    "I mean what's really the point in anything?" Brandon gasped while he tossed the empty Mexican salt shaker on the counter. Brandon is about twenty or so years old and just recently took residence down the hall from my unit. He's a goofy sort of kid, tall as Andre the giant, pale as …